So, quitting the cigarettes is proving to be more difficult than I anticipated. This past weekend was particularly stressful. A bad time to quit, I suppose. Is there ever a good time to quit? For that matter, is there ever a bad time to quit?
I’m against the ropes and getting beat up pretty badly by the tobacco companies.
They won the First Round.
I plan on fighting back.
Not smoking is going well. Actually better than I thought it would be going. 🙂
I’m landing some good punches. 😉
However, I did take a counterpunch last night. 😦
Yep, I had one cigarette last night. A lot on my mind, I suppose.
Will keep the updates coming!
Thanks for your support…
I haven’t had a cigarette since 6:00 this morning.
The irritability and crankiness will subside in a few days.
The chip? Let’s just say I think I was born with that. I had one psychiatrist tell me I should take out stock in Frito-Lay. 🙂
He was a funny pdoc.
Well, goodnight! Off to see the Cubs and Brewers play in Milwaukee tomorrow. A couple of bottom dwellers; however, it has been 8 years since I’ve been to a Major League Baseball game. So…
I plan on having a lot of fun — and not having a cigarette. 🙂
As I puffed on my last cigarette, I felt a sense of relief mixed with some anxiety.
This is my last cigarette, I thought to myself. Ever? Hopefully. Yes. I’ve begun to experience shortness of breath and I’ve developed a cough — mostly unproductive (mostly). As I look at the other (mostly older) residents here at Abbott House, I realize that I do not want to hack and cough my way through life. I don’t want to have trouble catching my breath either. I realize the problem only gets worse.
After my last drag, I turned my cigarette, still red at the tip, to face me.
Fuck you, I thought. Then I buried it in a casket of ash and butts. At least, it won’t be lonely.
As an aside, one top researcher/practitioner, estimates that 80-90% of people with schizophrenia smoke. I intend on being in the other 10-20%.
Take care and have a great day! 🙂
PS This will be another blog series. I will use it to help myself — and others — overcome the addiction.